And then there was one

One parent that is.

The hubster left this morning on a 6 day trip leaving me alone with Baby Girl for the first time ever!  I can't say I'm not nervous or on the verge of a breakdown, but I've had 12 weeks of parenting.  I should be ready for this, right?

I mean tons of single moms do it from day one...

Math and Time PSA

In case you didn't know,

1 hour and 15 minutes does not equal 1.15 hours

That is all.

Thank you.

Running Rewards

I've been running almost every other day since I was cleared at my 6 week post partum doctor's visit.  I'm not running for very long because I've got the baby with me and running with a stroller is a lot harder than running solo.

I just hit my pre-pregnancy weight and by pre-pregnancy, the weight my doctor used as my baseline which was probably 2 months in, so not pre-pre-pregnancy weight just yet, but close!

I'm a firm believer in rewards.  Before becoming pregnant, food was my reward.  Since I'm trying to lose weight and not just maintain, I reward myself with a shower!  I usually shower every other day because #momlife and they usually coincide with runs.  If I don't get a run in, I don't withhold it.  Ewww because that would be gross.  No instead, I use all my fancy smancy bath products in my after run showers.  Lush body scrubs, peppermint foot scrub, Avene toner, Caudalie face mist, Chanel body lotion, the works.  Non-run showers get Cetaphil and Lubriderm.

Just a few more pounds...

Hubster = Toddler

In so many way, but today's post is about his eating habits.

I honestly don't know how he is still alive.  There is nothing green in his diet.  Though he claims to eat green beans, but that's like 6 times a year.  I don't think that counts.  His diet is seriously like a toddlers, maybe even worse, but what's also peculiar is that he only eats whole Triscuits.

Not like whole grain Triscuits, but whole unbroken Triscuits.  I've found a number of opened boxes of Triscuits that are about 90% consumed.  The common trend?  They are all broken Triscuits.

It's like the kid who only eats crustless sandwiches cut into triangles.

So guess who is stuck eating the broken ones?  I'll have two children to deal with soon enough.

Nipples

Not mine!

My brother and his wife bought this blanket for Baby Girl for Christmas while she was still in utero. It was super cute in its original packaging. It was rolled up and looked like a bear. You can kind of still see the bear, but when I look at it, it looks like dog nipples with a face...

It's kinda creepy. 

Group Overload

Prior to having Baby Girl, I was part of two or three Facebook groups - all lacrosse related.  Since Baby Girl's arrival, I have joined 17 Facebook groups! SEVENTEEN! 17!

I've joined four San Diego Mom groups, one for Poway, two breastfeeding groups, one carseat group, four babywearing groups, one cloth diaper group, two baby development/sleep groups, and one postpartum group!

I need to stop joining groups or else I'll spend all my time reading posts on Facebook.  I catch myself reading when I should be interacting with Baby Girl.

Damn You, Target

I cannot stay away.  It's a sickness.  Cartwheel doesn't help either or the 5% discount using the Target card.  It's like I find deals on Cartwheel and then I have to go to Target.  Once there, I find shit I don't need, but still buy.

Don't get me started on Target clearance.  In the past week, I've bought another activity mat (to keep at my mom's house when she starts watching Baby Girl full time), two pairs of pants for Baby Girl, hooded baby bath towel, and long sleeved, footed pajamas!  I justify everything by saying she will need them eventually.

Eventually, we will be bathing her every day and this bath towel will put us at 4.
Eventually, it will be cold enough for pants and long sleeved footed pajamas.

At least clearance baby items are significantly cheaper than clearance Elaine clothes.

All baby, all the time

Pre-baby, I noticed that once my friends had a baby, it was like that's all said friend could put on their social media. I've fallen into the same trap, but not because I'm obsessed with my baby, but because I don't do anything but take care of my baby. I wish I had something other than baby related pictures and posts, but I am stuck in an eternal 3 hour cycle revolving around my baby. So it's not because I've changed, but my circumstances have changed. I guess I can't wait to go back to work to do something other than baby. Or be able to go out to a nice meal and take some more food pictures or just do something interesting that goes beyond monitoring poop color or being attached to my pump or cleaning up spit up...

You can't spoil a newborn

That's just one of the things I have heard. Also newborns aren't manipulative. And by manipulative, they cry for no reason. 

I question that last one. I'm currently holding my baby to sleep and I swear to god that after I picked her up and settled down into the chair, she opened her eyes and gave me the most devious and cutest smile. A smile that says "You just got played" or "You're my bitch" or "Sucker". Very self satisfying smile. I'm keeping my eye on you!!!

Exfoliation

Ever since giving birth, Ive put undue pressure on myself to get back to my pre-pregnancy body.  I know that logically it took me 10 months to put on the weight, I should give myself that much time to take it off.  If you know me,  I'm impatient and need results now.  It's not just the weight though.  My skin is what's giving me grief now.  I know it'll take some time to get back to normal, but it just doesn't feel the same.  It's not just loose, but different.

I read that exfoliating will help it bounce back, so before seeing a movie with the hubster, we stopped at Lush where I probably spent too much money on two tubs of exfoliating products:  Rub Rub Rub and Ocean Salt.  I use Rub Rub Rub every day  and has replaced my Dove bar and I use Ocean Salt once a week as I feel it does a bit more exfoliating than the other.  I really like how the Rub^3 leaves my skin feeling and smelling.

Taking a shower is one of my escapes as of late and if this makes it even more luxurious and decadent, then I think it's worth the extra money.

Treat yo'self!

Breathing Easier

The hubster and I had some very good friends come and visit us for a long weekend.  It was amazing, exactly what I needed.  They brought a sense of normalcy back into my life and just for a moment, I could breathe a little easier.

Just knowing that there was no judgement from my friends and that they were willing to take a crying, screaming baby and soothe her until she fell asleep was just priceless, really no words can describe it.  I don't get that sense of relief when my mom or the hubster are there for me.  Even if they are holding Baby Girl, I know that I need to be ready to be tagged back in, but with my friend, she had it covered from start to finish.  That's what a safety net feels like.

While my one friend covered the baby front, the other had me covered.  She made sure I could be myself and find myself again.  Their dual efforts really just brought me out of my postpartum rut.  They just left and I'm overwhelmingly sad.  I'll miss them so much.