Anger

It makes me angry that the hubster puts little to no effort to calm the baby. He went on a 3 hour hike on Mt Woodson Trail this morning and came back in pain and sweaty and smelly. 

I wanted to hand him the baby so I could get a nap. I had been dealing with fussy Elise since 1 am. He begrudgingly takes the baby even though what he really wants is a shower.

So how does he handle the baby? He holds her on the couch and let's her scream her head off. If he's really feeling like making an effort, he gives her his pinky to suck on. If that doesn't work, well she can cry it out. 

I wish he would get up and move with her or check her diaper or use the vibrating swing or try and burp her or re-swaddle her a little tighter. I just wish he would try more rather than the ones that require the least amount of effort. 

I'm also mad that I have to be the one to remind him to extend his leave an extra day and oh by the way he's due back into work on Monday and its fucking Friday. So if he doesn't get t approved by today, he's fucking screwed. So I have to take the baby back with no fucking nap while he makes phone calls. He's been back from his refreshing baby free hike for 30 minutes with 5 minutes of baby time. And when he's off the phone, he jumps into the shower when I try to hand the baby back to him

What the fuck!!!

I don't even know why he took paid family leave. Oh yeah, so he can have himself a fucking a vacation.