I went out tonight to celebrate a friend's 40th birthday. He's a fellow umpire and just an overall great guy. I was reflecting in the drive home how much more social I've become in the last year. I've lived in Ohio for over 4 years now and it's taken over three years to collect a small group of friends that I interact with socially. I guess when I moved out here and got married, I just hung out with the hubster and that was enough. Obviously, that was not the case. I did get resentful at times that I had come out here to be with him and left behind family and friends. The hubster always encouraged me to call acquaintances from lacrosse or wherever to go out, but I never did. I was always afraid that they wouldn't want to hang out with me or they would be busy or would think why is this person calling me. In short, I was afraid of rejection. It turns out I was being stupid as usual.
I took my first steps a few months ago and initiated dinner and drinks with some friends and wasn't a disaster. It turned into another outing. Amazing. This is what it's like to have friends again. This has been great for our marriage too. I get to go out and the hubster gets to go see his friends without me getting bitter. I think I lost the point of this post, but I'll sum it up with this: I've had so much fun with new friends this past year and hope I can keep it going.
P.S. It occurred to me that this makes me sound like a total loser and loner.
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