Anticipation

I am sooooo soooo sooooooo ready to go to Utah.  This week has been a roller coaster for me.  I've bounced back and forth from nervous/anxious/scared to excited to tired/exhausted and back to excited.  I can't wait to go snowboarding.  I've spent the last month slowly getting everything I need and I finally have it all.  I spent a good chunk of change and I tried my boots on with my board and bindings for the first time last night and the difference between what I have and the rental was amazing.  I feel I'm going to be that much better.

All those negative feelings I've had are a result of a big presentation I'll have to present on Monday to an colonel.  If he buys in to it, then I go back to Utah to present to his boss in two weeks.  It's kind of a big deal.  The last time I presented an older version of this presentation, it went ok.  Not swimmingly, but I wasn't laughed out of the conference room.  Still need to work on that public speaking and confidence thing.  I'm as prepared as I can be.  I know the presentation and info forwards and backwards, it's just when I start talking all the trouble starts.  I don't want to over prep because then if I don't say it exactly as rehearsed I get frustrated and tongue tied.  If I don't prep enough, I don't know what to say.  I'm not very quick on my feet.  I'm the kind of person that if you ask me a question that I'm not an expert on, I like to sit, think, mull over, and then answer.  I don't always have that luxury in these settings.

This post has gotten off track.  Bottom line, I'm ready to get on that plane and get everything over with.