I hate ...

being hungry.  Why do I let myself be hungry?  I'm hungry right now, and I just opened up my drawer at work and surveyed my options: Fiber One Chocolate and Oats bar, Kashi Go Lean Crunch Chocolate Caramel Bar, NutriGrain Raspberry bar, half a bagel, almonds, chocolate covered almonds (for someone who doesn't like chocolate a lot, I sure do have a lot of chocolate in my drawer).  I think it's because I started counting calories.  I don't know why I bother.  It all ends the same way.  I'll be real good about recording things and then I will get mad when the calories get really high for the little amount of food I eat.  Then I start to cheat and not record things or lower the portion size.  Then I'll stop altogether and just eat.  So I'm at the beginning of the viscous cycle.  I'm gonna be grumpy by the time I get home.  Good thing the hubster has class tonight.  The plan is to go home, go grocery shopping, then take the spin class at the gym.  That means I'll have gone until 8:00 without eating and I'm already hungry now at 5:00.  I don't see myself being successful tonight.